Problems behind Walls
Argh, I feel so lonely. So trapped. So fearful.
Pam, you say I'm the most mature. Truth is, I'm forced to be, though mature I am not. All because of my younger siblings. It's just like Serene said, "you have to be strong and mature and there is no one there to help you". No one, because each family is different, each person is different, and even if your younger siblings are the same age, the experience will also be different. But God's there. He always is. Like an elder brother.
And through worship, I've realised how many walls I've built up inside of me. Walls so thick others can't get in, and so strong I can't get out. I really want to just blurt everything out to someone, but yet I can't bring myself to. Sigh....
Fix our eyes on Jesus.
I need to be less sensitive. Otherwise the one who gets hurt is me.
All in God's hands. Everything. In God's hands.
Pam, you say I'm the most mature. Truth is, I'm forced to be, though mature I am not. All because of my younger siblings. It's just like Serene said, "you have to be strong and mature and there is no one there to help you". No one, because each family is different, each person is different, and even if your younger siblings are the same age, the experience will also be different. But God's there. He always is. Like an elder brother.
And through worship, I've realised how many walls I've built up inside of me. Walls so thick others can't get in, and so strong I can't get out. I really want to just blurt everything out to someone, but yet I can't bring myself to. Sigh....
Fix our eyes on Jesus.
I need to be less sensitive. Otherwise the one who gets hurt is me.
All in God's hands. Everything. In God's hands.
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