Prayers work miracles

Ohmygosh tomorrow is 16 Nov!!! :D

But my bro ain't in Singapore. Sian no one to talk to at home.

And tomorrow's the last day of PW! :D Everyone would be going out to play. :)

But I got training. :(

At least the load's only 4.5 litres.

Super sian of Odac and of stairs. Not that I'm not enthu about my CCA, or that I don't care about Odac, because I do care about it. But I ain't like the rest, they all have close friends in Odac. They've got bros. Indah and I don't. Indah and I go together, but we don't click closely because we are too different. Like girly and non-girly. And because of that there isn't that feeling of passion, of belonging. Just like what I told my bro, I'm dispensable. Why would it matter if I ponned? Only the attendance would suffer.

And I have no idea how to go about making what I wanna give Val for her birthday. And it's on Friday, I can't make it on time. Sigh. Sorry.

I miss Ness. :( And Cherms. And when I accidentally called Sherms, I was quite tempted to talk to her. And I wanna chat with Yihui. I still remember when we went to Far East to look for prom dresses. And I wasn't interested so I just sat down at the bench after a while. So Yihui stayed with me. And she asked me about my family. At that time my relationship with my family was quite cold. So I only said a little, nothing more. Only Ness knows more. But anyway, somehow when it comes to looking at the heart, Yihui and I match. Ness and Jonas read me the best.

I've grown cold and hard. And I'm sorry. I don't know how to keep our friendship going, or how to start conversations like Vally, or how to crack a funny and silly joke. I can't keep a conversation going either, somehow it just ends at me. Ms P wrote in my report book that I need to come out of my shell.

But I'm glad that I'm learning to trust God now. To just believe that He'll handle it all. That because He is here, everything will turn out fine.

Prayers work miracles. People I wanna pray for. Ethel, Qiangwei, Sarah, Jiayu, Gen, Ms Rockey, Ms Lee, Ms P, so many, now that I think of it. My bro. Ampon. Mui. Yupin Yupan.

He's got the whole world, in His Hands~~