450th post! Xblaze

Okay I know I should be sleeping right now, seeing how tired I am. Can't focus in lectures, can't run or try a pullup. Hyperventilated during PE because I pushed too hard. But it's not a serious thing.

Haven't recovered from the lack of sleep during Xblaze. :/

Xblaze camp was just so depressing, kept raining and there were lightning storms. Sian. Stand under the shelter and stone at the raindrops plopping into the puddles of water in the grass patch. Stayed away during basha night to watch over the J1s, got so many bites and I was physically lacking in energy the next day. And 3 people cut themselves in the night, all don't know how to use the jack knife properly, I used 1.5 litre to wash their blood man. The 2 serious cuts really bled a lot cos it was at the finger, with a strong pulse.

Next day DOTA was okay, quite fun at stations. But Zhihao and I were super tired from running, Zhihao was stoning. Luckily cycling got cut short, though unfortunately cos of 2 serious casualties. Sent to hospital. Campfire was pretty good, we had a second Pokemon skit, but as a duel. Hahahaha. Tired but couldn't sleep well.

Walk back was okay, time passed quite fast but I was really tired and dying man. Glad I survived, thank God. Missed church and BS. :(

Gonna visit Abbie tmr/later, excites~ (:

Ethel's coming back in a week, Jiayu in a month! (:

So tired of life sometimes. Some moments I wanna go home, especially in lonely moments. But it's not like I'm a stranger to loneliness. Guess we just failed to keep in contact. But after those moments, I'll think of what I'll miss, the sadness it'll bring (if any), and I'll push those thoughts away again. Keep hanging on, so that perseverance may finish its work. God is pushing you hard, so that next time you'll be able to handle the big jobs He has specially assigned for you. Remember that. And I need to stop being cynical about friends, it ain't very nice to them and it ain't healthy.