Angels.

Sigh. I really have to stop this, don't i, and pick myself up.

And yet studying hard for myself seems like a "Not applicable" reason for me, simply cos i don't want to be a successful person. I would rather be a road sweeper than a banker. Like Johnny Barnes (go wiki, then vimeo vid). Haha. sigh. Let me be a hermit for the week please.

Thankful to God for today, for all my friends that God has placed around me. Came to church at 8.30 and just listened to the worship team practice. Sat around. Abbie came and mentored. Then Eky came and he seemed confident in guiding Joshua, so I could let go of the ushers. Listened somemore. Then Narrow Road started playing and tears started welling up. Haha no idea why. Abbie walked over, asked if i was okay, sat down beside me, pulled me to the noticeboard. Couldn't talk. We went to the toilet, Jasmine was at the sink. Managed to say something. Abbie passed me tissue. Covered my face and tried to chill and pull myself together, service was gonna start. Jasmine and Serene passed us a pack of tissue i think, thanks. :) Once i was okay then i opened my eyes. Heheh sorry for the shock and causing you to worry, Abbie. After Pam exited i washed my face and we headed back in. Then i walked out again just as Jonas reached the chapel, so she came to find me at the steps outside. Haha at that point in time i really didn't know why i was feeling the way i felt, all i knew was that i needed some space to breathe. But i'm glad she was there, we haven't talked in a long time. We stood around the notice board, then Abbie came out while i was calling Gabby. Shut those feelings out/in. Called Beverly. Take 5! was going to be fine. Service had started so we went back to our seats.

Worship was good, sermon was good too. The Greatness of Our God. :'| Then after service, Pearlyn came to find me to pass me last week's Project Alpha but she left before we could have a proper chat :( , left when Danielle called me over to the pews cos i had forgotten my Bible. Heh. Sat down to tie my shoelace, then "Am I tapping the correct person? Heh. If I'm tapping the wrong person." Jasmine. :) "No it's the right person," i said. She walked me from the chapel all the way to the basement room, and we talked. Shared with her, shared with me. Reminded me about God's providence, that things go His way, not up to our own expectations, to let go and let God, to trust God. Then i went for choir, but it didn't seem to be starting soon so i went up to find Abbie, she was leaving soon for softball match. Went back to choir but in no mood to sing. Heh sorry for being so sian, Gabby.

Had dinner with Denise, Gabby, Angie. Talked to Angie on the way and kinda found out how overwhelmed i was with Odac, homework, MBTs, March "hols", Youth Sunday, X-blaze. Letter from Abbie. Spent the day with Danielle and Jasmine and Angie.

Need to learn to trust God in this trial, just like during preparation for Fundraising and for Youth camp. One thing at a time, persevere.

What did i do to deserve so many, such wonderful friends and sisters. God's grace, really. By grace and His mercy.

Pray with faith and not doubt, and listen. Last night, God reminded me about the verse that goes, Do not be afraid for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God. And Abbie gave me one of those small cards, and it said, Do not fear, for I am with you. Coincidence? I don't think so. It's from Isaiah 41:10, read the whole isaiah 41. And right now, i am reminded of how during Church camp, Danielle used hand signals to ask me, Do you love Jesus?