Wails and Yells by the Other in the Living Room

Your life is not your own.

My life is not my own.

So many hidden evil thoughts bubble to the surface in my anger - aggressive thoughts, evil thoughts, rude coarse thoughts.

What kind of love do I have in my heart, what kind of horrible sick twisted "love" this is. How far I've fallen.

God why have You given me this area of service, whyyyy LORD